Page 4- I was so used to using what I had to get what I wanted. I know we all do this; but that doesn’t make it right. As a matter of fact, many of us don’t even know what we want. We may have an idea of what we want, but on a level deeper than the surface, we don’t really know. For example, I knew I wanted love...an unconditional loyal type love. A love that never ended; one that death could not do apart; one that air could not come between. Yet, I didn’t know who was capable of handling me on that level. So anyone who showed attention; gave me some of their time...I was drawn. I knew money didn’t matter. And even though attention & quality time was of essence for me, I rushed in it-not wanting to waste none of it. Little did I know, time was the true measurer of character traits such as loyalty, respect, stability, trust, etc.
Boy was I in for a big surprise-which included illnesses;sicknesses; and diseases, in deciding what I wanted and who I wanted-over the years. I definitely do not consider the big surprise a waste of time; and I’ve matured to have no regrets. For because of these life lessons of love, I now know that it’s not what I want that matters, it’s what I need that sustains me through this journey. I may not get what I want all the time, but I always get what I need. Always!
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