Pure Hearts

Page 52-Often words are comforting and motivating. And then there are times when words aren’t enough. There are moments when I feel like I can fly. And then, there are those times I wonder if I’m ashes scattered on the ground.

For a while, the idea seems to working. Then it seems as though the idea crashes. Yesterday I was speeding. Today I am a sloth.

Why is it that I may write a book in one day but on another day I struggle with writing just one word?

In a minute laughter turns into crying. On one side of the Earth it is Morning and the sun is shining. Here, it’s darkness with no sight of the moonlight.

While everything seems to be changing, there’s this one thing that should remain the same...and that is this: one pure heart deserves another pure heart.

Help.

I Have To Love You

Page 51-The Law is that we love our neighbor as we love ourselves. It ain’t say nothing about “like” each other. What a relief! Sometimes I don’t even like my behavior and actions. So I know how difficult it is to like someone else’s attitude, habits, ways, etc.

And apparently God knew too. He also knew that love is stronger. Love conquers all. 

If we learn to love one another through it all, the battle is over. And we have won.

We have won!

I Won’t Complain

Page 50-I think I matured when I realized that I didn’t need more. Bigger was not the solution to the problem. What I needed was a grateful heart. A mind that is content no matter what circumstances I’m in; knowing that God is with me...leading and guiding my paths.

When I truly accepted that my purpose on Earth is greater than my own fleshly and worldly wants. To be in a place where God honors you and trust in you enough to help save souls from dying an eternal tormenting death.

To help free minds that have been captured and enslaved by God’s enemy. To help mend broken hearts. God don’t need no help so to be chosen, it is a privilege and a treasure to be cherished and not taken as something small or average or normal.

It is a glorious gift from The Most High God to be chosen and trusted to do His work on Earth.

Knowing what I know today, I can truly say: it could be better but it could be worse so I won’t complain.

This is the season to rejoice! Rejoice I say, rejoice!!!!!

With God On Our Side

Page 49-God has placed me on some assignments which requires me to walk side by side with God without any other interferences.

This happens when God is causing a great impact for human nature. God alone will get the glory for these world changing events.

Oftentimes, it seems as if everyone and everything is up against us when we walk side by side with God, fulfilling the purposes God ordained and prepared us to fulfill (God has already chosen His People for His purposes so He know exactly who is willing, ready and able to do His Will).

However, in God’s Word He lets us know that “I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me.” Therefore, although we may seem alone and that all is up against us, we are never alone.

We have God The Most High and Almighty on our side and with God on our side, we don’t need no army.

“God’s Will will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.”

I Came To Pray

Page 48-Wherever my Father want me to go, I show up. I show up because God lives and loves within me and through me. Whomever God want to comfort, love on and/or deliver a message to/for, I don’t mind Him using me.

In fact, I ask Him to use me. It is an honor and a privilege for God to use me to do His Will on this Earth as He planned in Heaven.

I love working for God. It is a rewarding duty that I look forward to everyday.

Wives Submit

Page 47-Listen to me when I tell you that there is a God, He is real and He makes no mistakes. God is not like human...He is all seeing and all knowing. 

God’s way and Will for us are perfect and strategically designed. When Hod made the Woman for the Man, God  created the perfect solution to life’s journey.

He created two souls and bodies that would form an unbreakable union to help each other through every challenge and celebration of life by offering one another in areas where there is lack.

In doing so, this perfect unity creates abundance, balance and satisfaction.

Because of the adversary that is always roaming to kill, steal and/or destroy everything good and perfect, the LORD instructed wives to submit to their own husbands.

See, the way God created the Woman for the Man was so that she would be his helper. The one who would know him better than he know himself so she’d be able to cover him when he’s afraid, confused or naked.

She’d be able to uplift him when he’s down, tired and worn. Comfort him when he’s depressed, lonely or sad. Fulfill him when he’s depleted, hungry or rejected. Heal him when he’s bruised, hurt or used. Be his pleasure at any and all times.

God created her soft for him. This makes her vulnerable. The adversary notices this and does everything to dismantle this love.

God already knew and prepared the union to overcome the tricks of the enemy.

“Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:“

“Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord.”

I Got Work To Do For God

Page 46-God will raise a person who is not interested in the ways of this world but who is more inspired to do exactly what God desires to be done on this Earth as He planned it in Heaven.

This person had this destiny before he or she was even placed in their mother’s womb. God designed this individual to be brave enough to go against all odds, confident enough to trust solely in God’s Word and not depend on man, money, clothes, shelter or food for survival yet know that these things are just a few important gifts given by God according to His Will and Purpose.

God has developed and trained this individual to be fearless enough to fight armies and giants without any other help besides the mighty Hand of God’s own power.

This person is more concerned with doing the Will of God than anything else. You can lie on this person, cheat on this person, belittle this person, and do any and every thing to damage/destroy this person’s life. But none of that matters to this person due to the faith this individual possesses for God, that pleases God the most. This person desires strongly to obey God and follow the path that God leads and direct them in.

God rewards this someone abundantly as this person diligently seek, thirst and hunger for God. And this person knows that nothing is greater. This person’s relationship with God is unmovable or unshakable no matter the circumstance. God has raised this person to be loyal and solid in God’s Kingdom. 

Are you that person?

A Walk In The Rain; Dance In The Puddles

Page 45-I once was a worry bug. I was anxious about everything. I stressed about anything. But God! But God!

When the experiences of life begin to weigh you down, take a walk in the rain and dance in the puddles.

The best things in life truly are free! I guarantee your heart will rejoice like a child full of love. Let nature be your friend. It’s here for that purpose.

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God Qualified Me

Page 44-I remember asking God to expand my territory. Because I had learned and mastered accountability, I was sure I was ready. I already knew and applied the concept of treating others how I’d like to be treated versus treating others as they treated me.

“For when for the time ye ought to be teachers, ye have need that one teach you again which be the first principles of the oracles of God; and are become such as have need of milk, and not of strong meat.”

I wasn’t ready at that time when I requested a larger work load though. God knew I needed tough skin without a cold heart. God was not going to enlarge my work knowing what was before me that I yet was not ready to handle. I had acquired certain attributes, but God had to show me the next steps. 

To work for The Most High God is to work in/for His Kingdom and I had to be qualified.

No college degree or institutional/organizational training could have qualified me for this position. No, I needed God Himself to teach and approve me for this work. I had to walk step by step and climb level by level...one on one with the God of all Creations. 

I had to pass each test before moving on to the next. And some of those tests took me years to past.

Not to be mistaken, I have not reached my final destination. For this is a lifetime journey. However, I am now qualified for the next level of work. God qualified me.

It May Not Come As Expected But It’s Coming

Page 43-God said “we have not because we asked not” and so I asked. I finally surrendered my will over to the Will of our Father, which art in Heaven. I asked that  God’s Kingdom come and to let HisWill be done, in my life, on this Earth as it is in Heaven. 

I asked Him to give us this day our daily bread and to forgive us trespasses and to help us forgive our trespassers. I asked Him to lead us not into temptation and to deliver us from evil. I asked God to get the glory and give us the victory in Jesus Name, I asked, I prayed and I thanked God for everything.

It may not come the way we expect but it’s coming! Get ready! It’s a mind blower!

Time Is Everything

Page 42-All those years of trying to build greatness overnight...wasted. Not the time, commitment, focus, effort, passion, lessons, blessings...no, none of those were wasted. As a matter of fact, they were all necessary as the process.

But what was wasted was positive energy whenever I got discouraged, frustrated, annoyed, irritated, rejected and denied. Had I known all those were necessary for the process too, I would have redirected all that negative energy into the positive. 

The positive would have been much stronger during those trials, errors and failures. I most likely would have never walked away from certain assignments God had placed me on; just to see Him bless another with the position He had placed me in. Just to see another appreciate and work even harder and longer and be more dedicated to the blessing God had in store for me.

Although there is a brighter side to this: God still use me to this day by helping those behind me make it to the frontline, still love is time and time is everything. Let’s not rush it or take it for granted.

Because Love Cannot Be Contained

Page 41-The more I try to keep it in, the more it hurts. 

Show Up

Page 41-See, we don’t have to get ready because we already ready. Everything was done through Jesus Christ so the only thing left for us to do is show up.

God is gonna use that same fire representing the passion of Christ in us as His vessels to get the work done. The work of the Kingdom...God’s Kingdom which is eternal and why there is always work continuously needing to be done.

God said that He will bless our children, children, children and every generation thereof. Therefore, we must continue to work to build God’s Kingdom for the next generations. 

The most important and significant and hardest labor has already occurred when Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior of our souls was born, lived, teached/taught, suffered, died and resurrected from the darkness of death into the marvelous light of glory; God’s glory.

We are magnified into that glorious light, all the living witnesses who saw, spiritually and naturally, the truth.

So now, we just show up to glow up. Cause God already did the rest.

Once The Seed Has Been Planted

Page 40-God knows I needed some patience instilled in my life. Born into the fast life, I knew nothing about slowing down long enough to smell some flowers.

In fact, I was so quick, them flowers better not had been in my while I was on the move because they would’ve got smashed without me even knowing I smashed them.

I had to learn a lesson that would carry me on for the rest of my life here on this Earth: and that lesson was understanding the process of planting seeds. 

See, I was always so anxious to see results right away. I didn’t quite get the concept of allowing growth and maturity. I expected overnight miracles or something. 

But as I began to evaluate myself and realize how much time I needed to reach another level or height in my journey, then I became more interested in learning about planting.

It is something fascinating about putting a seed in some dirt, adding water to the dirt and watching the seed come to life in a beautiful form of a fruit, vegetable, plant, flower and so on.

However, when the process isn’t understood, frustration and anxiety tends to form; causing nervousness, anger, hostility, stress, depression, worrying, etc.

With all this going on, we lose focus on one important factor in order to see progress and that is: the seed has been planted! Once the seed has been planted, planters ought to feel great (and not the opposite) for starting a process that God may want to use another to finish.

Remember, God loves unity. And team work makes the dream work.

All Attention Ain’t Good Intention

Page 39-Today I witnessed these two males taunting a young lady. At first they begin by complimenting her, saying things like “oh yeah that’s a queen right there” “she has her own structure” “she’s a dime” and so forth. 

The young lady was walking behind me but then she caught up with me and begin walking beside me. The guys then started saying things like “my sperm is pure” “my power is strong” “I see right through her” etc.

So she and I looked at each other and laughed amongst one another as the guys were going in different direction from us.

All of a sudden, the guys are behind us again talking their talk. The girl sighed a long breath and sped up her walk.The guys followed her so I said a prayer for her. As I prayed for her safety, I thanked God Almighty that it wasn’t me.

Although it’s human nature to crave attention, starting from birth, we must realize that all attention ain’t good intention.

If we let Him, God can, will and do protect us from seen and unseen dangers.

Know God

Page 38-

•God did not give us a spirit of fear but He gave us a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline

•By God’s Power, He saved us and called us to a holy life for His own purpose and grace

•God is able to guard what I have trusted Him with

•God is faithful

•God gave us His Spirit to help us-His Spirit dwells within us

•God our Father desires for us to be strong in the grace of Jesus Christ

•God wants us to endure hardships like good soldiers of Jesus Christ (a mighty and strong nation)

•God’s Word is not chained or in bondage

•God wants us to warn people about arguing & quarreling about words

•God does not want us to be ashamed about Him, Jesus Christ, His Spirit, His Word, His Works or anything about/concerning Him

•Our Father wants us to avoid godless talk as it leads to more & more ungodliness 

•God’s solid foundation stands firm

•The LORD knows everyone who belongs to Him. He chose us and therefore He wants who confess His Name-Jesus- to turn away from wickedness 

•God wants us to flee from youthful evil desires and to pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace with those who are pure in heart about Jesus

•God wants us to be kind with everyone, able to teach and not be resentful

•God want us to gently instruct those who oppose us

•God’s wrath will destroy the wicked

•God will rescue us from evil

•God want us to use His Word with authority to correct, rebuke and encourage with great patience and careful instruction

•God wants to be in and with us

•We should not use our authority to overpower but instead allow love to conquer all

I’m so INSPIRED!

God Provides

Page 37- Throughout the years God has placed me on many assignments. And for every mission I was chosen to accomplish, God provided everything I needed to get the job done. I used to think that I was operating off my own intentions...my own plans you know?

But the closer I got to God, the more I noticed that it was God’s plan operating through me so that I would fulfill the purpose ordained for me.

I begin to notice that once the purpose has been served, the things and/or people would be removed from my life and newness would replace the old.

Before I knew it was God moving (sometimes God will move without you being aware. It’s called walking by faith and not by sight), it would really bother me that I couldn’t have this anymore or I couldn’t do that anymore. It was even worse when the people would be removed. It’s like you build this whole bond/relationship full of memories with someone and then for some known or unknown reasons, it’s time to move on! And I used to get so stuck on the moving on part. Sometimes I just had to know why. Sometimes it just hurt so bad.

As I matured spiritually, I began to understand the meaning of seasons on a much higher level. So moving on became easier. Although, certain incidents bring about certain emotions, I still realize that it’s best for God’s Will to be done. This is our covering of our inheritance through our heritage. God knows best is not just a cliche...it’s actually my truth. Another truth I’ve come to enjoy is the freedom and peace in knowing that God will provide everything we need to get the job done. That’s right: we don’t have to beg, chase or settle. We are well taken care of by the Hands of the Almighty!

Building Takes Focus and Time

Page 36- With everything so fast paced and so many distractions, it’s easy to fall off, lose concentration and or lack interest. There were many times I would start a project or task and would not complete it due to one or all of the reasons I mentioned above.

It would be easy for me to walk away or abort an assignment or mission that was challenging. If I didn’t foresee the purpose or the results were not heading in the expected direction, I would say forget it...next!

But love has changed my entire concept of abandonment and neglect. Love has taught me to stay firm and consistent and to finish what I started. I now realize that success is measured in commitment and dedication. And that we can not rush something that we desire to last forever. No matter how tedious the detail requirements are or how long the process, building takes focus and time. And love has taught me that too.

When God’s Will Is More Important Than What We Want

Page 35-I saw a beautiful Bible case and I wanted it bad. I showed it to the person I was with because I knew they would steal it for me. The person told me to put a Bible in the case. The enemy within kept telling me that this would be justified because God’s Word should not be for sell. 

And I begin to repeat this to myself. I even said it to the person I was with: “God’s Word shouldn’t be for sell anyway.” 

I carried the Bible in the case around the store the entire time. God gently reminded me that even though His Word should not be sold, that it wasn’t my place/position to fight that battle by doing something that is against His Will for my life.

God Word says: “if you love me, you will keep my commandments.” John 14:15 and God know I love Him, with all my heart, soul and mind Matthew 22:37.

So by the time we made it to the check out register, God gently instructed me to put the case and Bible down at the register. I obeyed. And I rejoiced, prayed and gave thanks to God for everything 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 but the enemy just kept coming; my mind/flesh kept wanting but God reminded me to be patient and what’s for me is for me.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen. Matthew 6:13

Trust God

Page 34-God gives us power, we take that power and instead of using it the way God intended for us to use it, we use it the way we want to use it. Then, how can we get mad at God for the choices we made...the decisions we chose when the outcomes are less than what we expected? How can we blame God for failing us, when we neglected Him first?

We have ALL been born into some type of trauma based off decisions that were made prior to us getting here. Yes, those Family choices and traditions has followed us for many generations. And in every generation, there is at least one who will say “no more”. One who will be considered the “black sheep” who goes against everything that is against God’s Will for their life.

That one who was purposed to tell the others all about God and His goodness and mercy and kindness and is willing to give it all up to walk that walk.

The one who is called a crazy radical God fanatic but care more about how God see him or her.

The one who know that it is best to put all trust in God and let Hin lead you vs putting trust in human and letting human lead you.

God is not deceitful and is not a man that He should lie. He said He will lead and guide you in the path of righteousness for His Name’s sake. God is the same as yesterday, today and tomorrow and He Promised to never leave us or abandon us or neglect us or leave us hungry and begging for bread. Those are just a few of His Promises. 

Trust God.

Sowing Seeds

Page 33-I used to get so irritated when an idea came to me and I did everything in my power to make the idea a reality, but failed. Nothing seems worse than giving it your all and not receiving the expected outcome.

As I matured more in God, visions became more clearer. This is when I came to understanding the process of sowing seeds. See, when seeds are planted, they don’t grow when we want them to. They grow in their appropriate seasons. 

We know that in order for a seed to grow, it needs a location, dirt/soil, water, sun and shelter from dangers. We must also remember it needs time. Time to mature. Time to reach its destination through its growing phases. Time to give others a chance/opportunity to explore its purpose and significance.

When God has instilled something of value within, there are levels of comprehension before manifestation can take place. Because God knows that a pig would have no idea what to do with pearls. Therefore, the seed that has been sown must be cultivated and developed enough to withstand any and all seasons, not just the season that causes its maturity. But also the storm, hurricane, tornado, volcano, drought, turbulence seasons as well. 

The most important season for a seed to survive in though, is the patience season. This is the season when we’ve done all of the sowing necessary to plant the seed and now we await to see the fruits of our labor as we continue to sow other seeds. 

Remember, the work is plenty but the laborers are few. Keep sowing your seeds of today for the fruit for tomorrow.

God’s Love Is Real

Page 32-Ever been in a situation where you had to ask yourself “how did this happen” or “why me” or “what was I thinking?” Lol. Well, I know I have...plenty of times!

Just recently, I found myself sitting on the ground shocked as ever asking myself “how did this happen?!” I was walking up some steps and felt myself tripping, so I balanced myself and looked down to see what was stumbling me. Nothing was there. My shoe strings were still in tact so I carefully proceeded to walk.

The next thing I know, I was trying to catch myself from landing on the ground but to no avail. There I was inches away from where I started to proceed up the steps, sitting on my bottom, scratching my head and looking around like what in the fork just happened!!!

I was stunned. And so was the lady who saw me “flying” across the ground. I had papers in my hand before I fell. They had scattered about. As the lady begin gathering my papers, she asked me “Oh my God Sis, you ok?” 

I answered her in bewilderment “yes, I don’t know what happened...” the lady said “I thought somebody pushed you Sis...it look like you were running from someone.”

Now, I’m even more confused. Later, I asked God why did He allow this to happen.

As I thought about what I did, which caused a pain to someone I love, I realized that I hurt myself by hurting my love one. See, God connected us together and He allowed the time fall to happen so that I’ll know that it’s real because God is real.

Inspire Instead of Impressing

Page 31-I can recall those times I would ask God to bless me with extra funds so I could pay this debt or that bill. I was working and making ok money. Yet, I always felt trapped with bills. I had a serious shopping habit and my taste has always been expensive.

I specifically remember one time asking God to make sure I had the money I needed to pay my car notes which were $393.91 each month. I was also praying for peace because I got tired of stressing and worrying and getting depressed over bills. 

God granted me the peace first. My car eventually got repossessed and I was so mad at God. I asked “how can you do this to me???” I trusted God for everything (I still do) so I couldn’t understand at the time why He could (what I thought) betray my trust in Him by allowing my car to get repossessed. 

After all, He is God and can do ALL things, right? Well, what I didn’t know (then) was that He was relieving me from the slavery I had placed myself in. Yes, I said slavery because anytime you have to do labor that you don’t enjoy to end up giving your earnings to someone or something that will not bring you a higher return and will eventually cost you to lose more money in the long term, then to me, that’s slavery. Because it’s not an investment. It’s a waste of resources. And for what? Just to look and feel good on the outside? While on the inside, you’re becoming rotten: worrying or stressing about how you gon make ends meet. Taking out loans, owing money  (when God said we are lenders and not borrowers); becoming so desperate that you begin sellling stuff, including your body just so you can keep up. With who though🤷🏽‍♀️. 

The things we go through to be impressive. I thank God for His Will and not mine. When my car got repossessed, it was the beginning of a peace I would not understand until 14 years later! No longer worrying about how I would pay the note, the insurance, the maintenance, the gas, parking tickets etc. I would get around much better now than the road rage I carried while driving.

Walking became my method of exercise and transportation. I had a chance to slow down and smell the flowers (literally), watch the sky and the birds traveling, the sun shining down, the stars sparkling bright with the moon at night, people watching and communication, dancing while walking, singing while walking...the peace I never experienced rushing through rush hour madness even when there was no traffic. I was always in a rush; hardly taking time to connect with nature and enjoy the simple things in life; the things that don’t cost a dime; those are the bests.

God gave me peace through freedom. Freedom from being impressive to being inspiring. Not too many will appreciate this level. But it is so worth experiencing. I’ll be your inspiration.

Darkness Must Come To The Light

Page 30-Jesus Christ is the Light that shines through the darkness. Jesus Christ is more than just a Name. Jesus Christ was a human being of flesh and blood who carried out the Will of the Father-of all Creations- completely.

Jesus Christ was formed from the vision of God -as we all were - except that Jesus Christ’ purpose on Earth was distinctly different from ours, perspectively.

Jesus Christ’ mission was to do something extremely miraculous that no other human being was capable of doing (raising from the dead); performing a task that no one before or after Him could or would do. Because God chose Jesus Christ’ vessel/temple/body to operate through to establish the important cause of righting some wrongs within the human creations’ err (no animal has acted in ways (or had the characteristics) of the human nature’s erroneous behaviors.

This err possibly stemmed from the confusion of being made in God’s image and the thinking that humans were Gods: having the total functionalities and powers of God the Creator of all Creations.

God used Jesus Christ as an example of what the “image of God” represented. Extremely powerful yet very meek. Not authoritative; over bearing; dictatorship. The power is used for the betterment of the human race and the destruction of evil.

Yes God is both good and terrible as in God is not a push over and nor did He create humanity to be. He created humanity to have dominion and to regulate the animals of the Earth and to take care of the Earth and all that’s within so that humanity and the animals may experience the giving of love and what it’s all about.

As any Parent who truly love and care about their Children, God also is truly protective (extra protective) about His Children and will destroy anything that (including people who) violate or bring excessive damage and harm to His Children’ well-being.

God does not play games about His People. God know what our minds can handle and what our hearts are capable of. And when God say “enough is enough” it is so. There is no more-as limited beings-we can say or do about any situation that God says “enough is enough” about.

Which means, we have exhausted our abilities concerning the situations (we are tired, stressed and ready to give up) and this is when God picks up our slack and begin to operate through us ~just as He did through Jesus Christ...but we must be willing (just as Jesus Christ)~ exposing the darkness within us and around us to the Light (Jesus Christ) which has ALL the God-given Power to bring life, liberty, justice and joy (in which joy is greater than happiness) through the restoring relationship with the Father God of all Creations.

This mean those who accept this new life receives the treasures of Heaven and Earth (a state of being and living).

The children’ children’ children’ children and the whole generation thereafter shall also receive God’s treasures of Heaven and Earth eternally.

And those who receive said Amen.

Follow Your Own Dreams

Page 29-When God place a strong desire in your heart and mind to accomplish a great thing, we call it a dream. We call it a dream because we saw a vision of what can be done through us by God. We know that it’s by God because it is something beyond our own thinking capacity of how to get this greatness done.

We are more than encouraged, inspired and motivated to accomplish this because even when it seems like all odds are stacked against us or the hurdles become gigantic and we wanna give up, give in and throw in the towel, we keep going forward and pushing through.

No matter who or what or when or where or why, we are determined to see this greatness through to its completion. It becomes our baby that we give birth of life. And this is why we stay focus on our dream(s). We don’t chase others’ dreams when we have our own. That would be neglect.

It Takes Time

Page 28-Many times I’ve attempted to share some new ideas and information with others and before researching on their own, they’d be quick to say “I don’t think that’s true” or “I don’t believe that.” 

And to be honest, I’ve been guilty of being this way too. Then I realized later that I missed out on some powerful opportunities due to my rejection of pertinent information and details about something I’d say my mind just wasn’t ready for at the time the rejecting occurred.

This has taught me the valuable lesson of being patience with others when they don’t get it when I get it. It takes time to open minds.

God Prepares

Page 27-I remember being so frustrated about not knowing enough to defend my rights. I was ready to throw in the towel on a mission God had placed me on dealing with the law of the land and the rights of the people. 

I was ready to turn this assignment over to another representative. But God stopped me. He encouraged me to continue by letting me know that He wanted me to fulfill this duty because God’s trust in me was enough.

He reminded me to slow down before crashing and to wrap myself up in His love and faithfulness; trusting that He will equip me with everything I need and He will also finish the good work that He started in me.

Our Father, The God and Creator of the Heaven and the Earth and all within, knows my eagerness and zealous to do His Will. And therefore, when I think I’m not ready, I really am ready because God lives within me and I am...truly... about my Father’s business.

Greatness Comes From Within

Page 26-Love is already great because it comes from God and God is love. So much so that a whole universe was created to share space and time with mortals. We all seek greatness as a measure of our successes in our lifetime. We measure greatness by how much money we make, how many cars we own, our physical appearances, if we’re “up on the latest trends” etcetera etcetera.

So many material gains but internally we are in so much pain. Why? Because we don’t really acknowledge the Source of greatness, which is the Source of love and other eternal gifts.. We view the world’s ideologies of what greatness is. And some of us, sadly, don’t even know about the real Source.

But there’s only one way to pure greatness and it comes from within not outwardly. It is a true gift from God. And money can’t buy that.

Create vs. Compete

Page 25-In love, it’s great to challenge each other to be better and do better. It’s a wonderful place to have a partner to journey through life with; accompanying and complimenting one another’s dreams, visions and experiences. And it’s also just better to create together than to compete against each other. 

It Didn’t Destroy Me, It Built Me

Page 24-It is a great gift to inherit. And it also brings a lot of pain. Pain comes from abuse. So many of us have been and are being abused even to this day-based on some choices we made/make and some based on the decisions of our caregivers.

Either way, we’ve all been through one thing or another which has caused us pain. No one pain can measure to another’s pain even if we’ve experienced the same problem.

But this gift that I speak of, when is given and received in its truest and purest form, can put an end to the painful hurts that stemmed from the abuse and misuse of this gift.

When done in the form of the Light, it will bring peace, trust and joy (which is greater than happiness) within the soul abounding in the heart. 

It will cure every illness, sickness and disease. It will breathe life into the lungs and cause the mind to think much higher than the lowest of the darkness. It gives the body strength to endure. 

This gift that many will try to use to break will actually build.

The gift I speak so highly and praisingly about; that I place on high above any and every other gift; that we have been so blessed to possess;which shall give us a permanent attitude of thanksgiving and gratitude because of the life it delivers and set free the captives...is love.

Don’t Worry About The Future

Page 23-Today after I was done cleaning all the boogers out of my nose and sanitizing my hands, one of God’s messengers said to me “We have all fallen short of God’s glory, so don’t go around beating yourself up about things you’ve done or didn’t do. God has something great for you and it has nothing to do with your works.” Only God knows how much I needed that message.

For many years I’ve tried to do everything right because I love God so much I didn’t want to disappoint Him. That’s what love means to me: wanting to please/satisfy the ones you love.

And one day God spoke so clearly to me and told me “you will never get everything right and it’s ok.”

I realized that God has brought me through every obstacle, storm and trial that I have encountered throughout my life. And if He brought me this far, I can trust that He won’t leave me now. I believe His Word when it says “The glory of this latter house shall be greater than of the former, saith the LORD of hosts: and in this place will I give peace, saith the LORD of hosts.” Therefore, worrying about my future will be fruitless because if I made through my past, I don’t have to worry about my future. 

Reserve Your Energy

Page 22-Even when I’m empty, I can always go to God’s Word for a refill. And in His Word, we are given wisdom and knowledge for our purpose and life on this Earth; to sustain us and empower us and strengthen us to do the Will of our Creator-The God of Heaven and Earth and all that’s within.

God’s Word tell us that we fight not against flesh and blood but against principalities; against powers; against the rulers of the darkness of this world; against spiritual wickedness in high places Ephesians 6:12

Our Father instructs and warns us in Ephesians 5:11 and have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather reprove them.

In love, our weapons are not carnal but are mighty through God by the pulling down of strongholds 2 Corinthians 10:4. Therefore, it is better to reserve my energy for love than to waste it fighting against “...it’s the principle though...”

Love Don’t Change

Page 22-Life can be detrimental in the beginning. Our whole existence depends on others: another to bring us upon this Earth; others to provide for us, to teach us, to help us, to feed, clothe & shelter us and so forth and so on. 

As time goes on, we begin to lessen our dependence on others and seek to fulfill our lives by our desires. Yet, we still must rely on others to even do that: we rely on employers to hire us, creditors to loan us money for homes, cars, businesses, education, friends to be there in times of trouble, etc.

As we mature, we realize that love-at it’s purest form-is all we really need. Love, afterall is the foundation of life. Had we known it in the beginning, perhaps life would not have been so devistating for us. For God is love. And love don’t change. As we begin to share it, we change the world.

Do It In Love

Page 20-There were some times when I acted out of anger and spite. That led me to misery because when the anger and spite had vanished, I was left with guilt and sadness knowing that I had hurt someone I cared for and love. The last thing you want to see if people suffering, especially when you have a close connection with that person.

As I begin to mature, I realized that I felt great when I did things out of charity, sincerely. The more love I received, the more love I could spread. But I had to receive it first. You know the saying: you can’t serve from an empty place (or something like that).

Anyway, like I was saying, I wanted something different so I had to do something different. Don’t get me wrong, “getting even” feels amazing in the beginning, but at the end, to see a love one hurting, paining or suffering because of you...that’s no good result for no one involved...unless of course... never mind, I don’t even wanna think like that. I’m learning to control my thoughts too. Because our thoughts eventually become our actions. And at this point, my focus and purpose is clear. Everything I do, I’ll do it in love. At least, that’s one of my main goals. Yep, I said EVERYTHING!

Be You

Page 19-One thing love has taught me that I will always remember and never try to alter is: no matter what, be you. There is a reason why you are the way you are. And somebody in this huge enormous world need you for you. We were not placed or positioned in this Earth for our own selves only. There is always a greater purpose of our existence; meaning we exist for the greater good of humanity. And only you can do what you were purposed to do so please...for the greater good of humanity, be yourself. You’re more valuable than you can ever imagine. Besides, no one else can be you better than you can.

God Did It

Page 18-“Hi Father! First I want to thank You so much for everything! This Morning I woke up with a renewed mind; a clean and pure heart; a restored soul and well, my body was aching but I called on Jesus and the pain went away-so a healed body! Yes Father! You did that! 

I talked to You last night asking You for direction, repenting of my transgressions and praising you with a heart of thanksgiving and gratefulness and You heard me and you answered me. 

It’s amazing how David’s Psalms heal my wounded soul during the most difficult spiritual battles. It’s odd that I, Your Daughter, can relate to my Brother David so much. I would think that my future Husband and David would be on the same thinking terms. But now as I dig deeper, it’s not about the mind but the heart. I have a heart after You like David did and that’s what’s relative and the most essential. The closer I get to You, the more joy, peace-calm, compassion, understanding, direction,..everything good from You, I experience-I receive.

I thank You Father for lifting the burden of me “needing to be in a relationship” “needing to be married” off my shoulders! For many years, I’ve lied. I’ve pretended. I’ve been desperate for a man. I’ve been desperately seeking love. And it’s been right here all the time!

Not forcing me to see. But allowing me to follow my own path so I have no one to blame for my experiences, lessons, failures and triumphs. You allowed me to spread my wings without clipping/chipping them.

I could not blame You or anyone else for the decisions I made. For Your Word clearly says: “But my people would not listen to me; Israel would not submit to me. So I gave them over to their stubborn hearts to follow their own devices.” Psalm 81:11-12

So for years, I “followed my heart” in which Your Word also says: “He that trusteth in his own heart is a fool: but whoso walketh wisely, he shall be delivered.” Proverbs 28:26

By the time we got to those two scriptures Father, You already gave us knowledge and wisdom in Deuteronomy 28:1 “If you fully obey the LORD your God and carefully follow all his commands I give you today, the LORD your God will set you high above all the nations on earth.”

Of course Father, You knew there were/are levels to reaching this height with You and that’s why inJob 42:12 You let us know that “The LORD blessed the latter part of Job’s life more than the first.”

See, Your Word is true and in Isaiah 55:11 You said, “so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.”

Later in Jeremiah 29:11 You told us “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Bonus: And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

Afraid To Love

Page 17-Is it afraid to love or afraid of love or afraid to love me? You placed so high that you thought I wouldn’t come down. Avoided me at all costs hoping I would stop coming around. Avoided me at all costs hoping I would stop coming around. Anything to get rid of me but could not find it in your heart to hurt me. Wanted to hate me so bad but loved me so good. The further you walked away physically, the closer we got spiritually. You discovered nothing is perfect not even in that world. I understand now why you played puppet string with me. Not just because I let you, but to test my waters. To see how deep is my love. For you. Nothing like the rest, yet expectations caused disappointments. You forgot I was human too. You thought love and respect was all it took. Where’d you get that from? Well, I didn’t know either...that we needed something even more powerful than love. I had to learn how to respect. So I wasn’t sure how that worked in a union. An union created and formed in the Heaven. We needed the Creator of creation. We still do. We always will. Or else...we will continue to be afraid to love; afraid of love. Yes I said we...you thought you were the only one with doubt and fear? No my dear. We’ve both been broken to the lowest denominator. Now it’s time to rebuild. But today, I’m in no rush.

Can’t Rush God

Page 16-I wanted to be married so bad. But it was only one person that I wanted to marry instantly. It was something so special about our connection, it made me anxious. I would have done just about anything and gone just about anywhere with him. Of course I had some boundaries but I was so gone over him. I stayed in communication with God about this guy. And God would reveal things to me (I suppose it was to calm my nerves).

I had never loved anyone in this manner. But God knew that my strong desire was not healthy so He had to show me that love is patient and love last. No need to rush it...because we can’t rush God anyway. God’s way equal God results.

Give Yourself A Hug

Page 15-Quitting on God and/or myself was, is and will forever be none of the many choices, decisions and options of my life. My purpose is fulfilling and I am fully aware of it. And that’s why  shutting love out; failing to get up after a fall (no matter how deep); being defeated after a decline or rejection...none of these will be a decision I make, a choice I choose or an option for me to accept.

God has inspired me so much that if I’m not looked upon as crazy, I’m called a radical religious person. And when I praise God and still do human things, it may seem hypocritical. So I’ve come to grips with this...you can’t please everybody all times. But you sure can choose & receive God’s unconditional love and kindness towards you at all times which causes a great appreciation, esteem, love and respect for yourself.

Now go on...give yourself a big loving “I’m proud of you despite it all” hug. It’s a gift from God to be filled with unconditional love for God, yourself  and others.

Light Will Not Be Hidden

Page 14-I think back on those moments in time when I became someone else to please the guys I dated. I say become someone else because I altered myself for the sake of the relationship. I would stop going out; cut back on talking to friends or visiting family as often. I poured everything into building the relationship. 

This was so wrong on every level imaginable. 

See,  for one thing-there is nothing we, humans, can do to ensure a one hundred percent guarantee relationship. Even a mother will abandon her child if that is the way their lives are ordained. Sure, we have the freedom to choose or decide the intention of our outcomes. 

Notice how I said “the intention.” It is intentional because as we live long enough, we realize the reality of this: our plans be different from God’s plans.

And for another thing-when God has called us to be a light, there’s no one relationship that we can pour our all into. As a candle can not be hidden under a table and the sun can not be hidden in a cave, neither can the humans who are called to be the light of the world, be hidden in a single relationship.