Greatness Comes From Within

Page 26-Love is already great because it comes from God and God is love. So much so that a whole universe was created to share space and time with mortals. We all seek greatness as a measure of our successes in our lifetime. We measure greatness by how much money we make, how many cars we own, our physical appearances, if we’re “up on the latest trends” etcetera etcetera.

So many material gains but internally we are in so much pain. Why? Because we don’t really acknowledge the Source of greatness, which is the Source of love and other eternal gifts.. We view the world’s ideologies of what greatness is. And some of us, sadly, don’t even know about the real Source.

But there’s only one way to pure greatness and it comes from within not outwardly. It is a true gift from God. And money can’t buy that.

Create vs. Compete

Page 25-In love, it’s great to challenge each other to be better and do better. It’s a wonderful place to have a partner to journey through life with; accompanying and complimenting one another’s dreams, visions and experiences. And it’s also just better to create together than to compete against each other. 

It Didn’t Destroy Me, It Built Me

Page 24-It is a great gift to inherit. And it also brings a lot of pain. Pain comes from abuse. So many of us have been and are being abused even to this day-based on some choices we made/make and some based on the decisions of our caregivers.

Either way, we’ve all been through one thing or another which has caused us pain. No one pain can measure to another’s pain even if we’ve experienced the same problem.

But this gift that I speak of, when is given and received in its truest and purest form, can put an end to the painful hurts that stemmed from the abuse and misuse of this gift.

When done in the form of the Light, it will bring peace, trust and joy (which is greater than happiness) within the soul abounding in the heart. 

It will cure every illness, sickness and disease. It will breathe life into the lungs and cause the mind to think much higher than the lowest of the darkness. It gives the body strength to endure. 

This gift that many will try to use to break will actually build.

The gift I speak so highly and praisingly about; that I place on high above any and every other gift; that we have been so blessed to possess;which shall give us a permanent attitude of thanksgiving and gratitude because of the life it delivers and set free the captives...is love.

Don’t Worry About The Future

Page 23-Today after I was done cleaning all the boogers out of my nose and sanitizing my hands, one of God’s messengers said to me “We have all fallen short of God’s glory, so don’t go around beating yourself up about things you’ve done or didn’t do. God has something great for you and it has nothing to do with your works.” Only God knows how much I needed that message.

For many years I’ve tried to do everything right because I love God so much I didn’t want to disappoint Him. That’s what love means to me: wanting to please/satisfy the ones you love.

And one day God spoke so clearly to me and told me “you will never get everything right and it’s ok.”

I realized that God has brought me through every obstacle, storm and trial that I have encountered throughout my life. And if He brought me this far, I can trust that He won’t leave me now. I believe His Word when it says “The glory of this latter house shall be greater than of the former, saith the LORD of hosts: and in this place will I give peace, saith the LORD of hosts.” Therefore, worrying about my future will be fruitless because if I made through my past, I don’t have to worry about my future. 

Reserve Your Energy

Page 22-Even when I’m empty, I can always go to God’s Word for a refill. And in His Word, we are given wisdom and knowledge for our purpose and life on this Earth; to sustain us and empower us and strengthen us to do the Will of our Creator-The God of Heaven and Earth and all that’s within.

God’s Word tell us that we fight not against flesh and blood but against principalities; against powers; against the rulers of the darkness of this world; against spiritual wickedness in high places Ephesians 6:12

Our Father instructs and warns us in Ephesians 5:11 and have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather reprove them.

In love, our weapons are not carnal but are mighty through God by the pulling down of strongholds 2 Corinthians 10:4. Therefore, it is better to reserve my energy for love than to waste it fighting against “...it’s the principle though...”

Love Don’t Change

Page 22-Life can be detrimental in the beginning. Our whole existence depends on others: another to bring us upon this Earth; others to provide for us, to teach us, to help us, to feed, clothe & shelter us and so forth and so on. 

As time goes on, we begin to lessen our dependence on others and seek to fulfill our lives by our desires. Yet, we still must rely on others to even do that: we rely on employers to hire us, creditors to loan us money for homes, cars, businesses, education, friends to be there in times of trouble, etc.

As we mature, we realize that love-at it’s purest form-is all we really need. Love, afterall is the foundation of life. Had we known it in the beginning, perhaps life would not have been so devistating for us. For God is love. And love don’t change. As we begin to share it, we change the world.

Do It In Love

Page 20-There were some times when I acted out of anger and spite. That led me to misery because when the anger and spite had vanished, I was left with guilt and sadness knowing that I had hurt someone I cared for and love. The last thing you want to see if people suffering, especially when you have a close connection with that person.

As I begin to mature, I realized that I felt great when I did things out of charity, sincerely. The more love I received, the more love I could spread. But I had to receive it first. You know the saying: you can’t serve from an empty place (or something like that).

Anyway, like I was saying, I wanted something different so I had to do something different. Don’t get me wrong, “getting even” feels amazing in the beginning, but at the end, to see a love one hurting, paining or suffering because of you...that’s no good result for no one involved...unless of course... never mind, I don’t even wanna think like that. I’m learning to control my thoughts too. Because our thoughts eventually become our actions. And at this point, my focus and purpose is clear. Everything I do, I’ll do it in love. At least, that’s one of my main goals. Yep, I said EVERYTHING!

Be You

Page 19-One thing love has taught me that I will always remember and never try to alter is: no matter what, be you. There is a reason why you are the way you are. And somebody in this huge enormous world need you for you. We were not placed or positioned in this Earth for our own selves only. There is always a greater purpose of our existence; meaning we exist for the greater good of humanity. And only you can do what you were purposed to do so please...for the greater good of humanity, be yourself. You’re more valuable than you can ever imagine. Besides, no one else can be you better than you can.

God Did It

Page 18-“Hi Father! First I want to thank You so much for everything! This Morning I woke up with a renewed mind; a clean and pure heart; a restored soul and well, my body was aching but I called on Jesus and the pain went away-so a healed body! Yes Father! You did that! 

I talked to You last night asking You for direction, repenting of my transgressions and praising you with a heart of thanksgiving and gratefulness and You heard me and you answered me. 

It’s amazing how David’s Psalms heal my wounded soul during the most difficult spiritual battles. It’s odd that I, Your Daughter, can relate to my Brother David so much. I would think that my future Husband and David would be on the same thinking terms. But now as I dig deeper, it’s not about the mind but the heart. I have a heart after You like David did and that’s what’s relative and the most essential. The closer I get to You, the more joy, peace-calm, compassion, understanding, direction,..everything good from You, I experience-I receive.

I thank You Father for lifting the burden of me “needing to be in a relationship” “needing to be married” off my shoulders! For many years, I’ve lied. I’ve pretended. I’ve been desperate for a man. I’ve been desperately seeking love. And it’s been right here all the time!

Not forcing me to see. But allowing me to follow my own path so I have no one to blame for my experiences, lessons, failures and triumphs. You allowed me to spread my wings without clipping/chipping them.

I could not blame You or anyone else for the decisions I made. For Your Word clearly says: “But my people would not listen to me; Israel would not submit to me. So I gave them over to their stubborn hearts to follow their own devices.” Psalm 81:11-12

So for years, I “followed my heart” in which Your Word also says: “He that trusteth in his own heart is a fool: but whoso walketh wisely, he shall be delivered.” Proverbs 28:26

By the time we got to those two scriptures Father, You already gave us knowledge and wisdom in Deuteronomy 28:1 “If you fully obey the LORD your God and carefully follow all his commands I give you today, the LORD your God will set you high above all the nations on earth.”

Of course Father, You knew there were/are levels to reaching this height with You and that’s why inJob 42:12 You let us know that “The LORD blessed the latter part of Job’s life more than the first.”

See, Your Word is true and in Isaiah 55:11 You said, “so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.”

Later in Jeremiah 29:11 You told us “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Bonus: And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

Afraid To Love

Page 17-Is it afraid to love or afraid of love or afraid to love me? You placed so high that you thought I wouldn’t come down. Avoided me at all costs hoping I would stop coming around. Avoided me at all costs hoping I would stop coming around. Anything to get rid of me but could not find it in your heart to hurt me. Wanted to hate me so bad but loved me so good. The further you walked away physically, the closer we got spiritually. You discovered nothing is perfect not even in that world. I understand now why you played puppet string with me. Not just because I let you, but to test my waters. To see how deep is my love. For you. Nothing like the rest, yet expectations caused disappointments. You forgot I was human too. You thought love and respect was all it took. Where’d you get that from? Well, I didn’t know either...that we needed something even more powerful than love. I had to learn how to respect. So I wasn’t sure how that worked in a union. An union created and formed in the Heaven. We needed the Creator of creation. We still do. We always will. Or else...we will continue to be afraid to love; afraid of love. Yes I said we...you thought you were the only one with doubt and fear? No my dear. We’ve both been broken to the lowest denominator. Now it’s time to rebuild. But today, I’m in no rush.

Can’t Rush God

Page 16-I wanted to be married so bad. But it was only one person that I wanted to marry instantly. It was something so special about our connection, it made me anxious. I would have done just about anything and gone just about anywhere with him. Of course I had some boundaries but I was so gone over him. I stayed in communication with God about this guy. And God would reveal things to me (I suppose it was to calm my nerves).

I had never loved anyone in this manner. But God knew that my strong desire was not healthy so He had to show me that love is patient and love last. No need to rush it...because we can’t rush God anyway. God’s way equal God results.

Give Yourself A Hug

Page 15-Quitting on God and/or myself was, is and will forever be none of the many choices, decisions and options of my life. My purpose is fulfilling and I am fully aware of it. And that’s why  shutting love out; failing to get up after a fall (no matter how deep); being defeated after a decline or rejection...none of these will be a decision I make, a choice I choose or an option for me to accept.

God has inspired me so much that if I’m not looked upon as crazy, I’m called a radical religious person. And when I praise God and still do human things, it may seem hypocritical. So I’ve come to grips with this...you can’t please everybody all times. But you sure can choose & receive God’s unconditional love and kindness towards you at all times which causes a great appreciation, esteem, love and respect for yourself.

Now go on...give yourself a big loving “I’m proud of you despite it all” hug. It’s a gift from God to be filled with unconditional love for God, yourself  and others.

Light Will Not Be Hidden

Page 14-I think back on those moments in time when I became someone else to please the guys I dated. I say become someone else because I altered myself for the sake of the relationship. I would stop going out; cut back on talking to friends or visiting family as often. I poured everything into building the relationship. 

This was so wrong on every level imaginable. 

See,  for one thing-there is nothing we, humans, can do to ensure a one hundred percent guarantee relationship. Even a mother will abandon her child if that is the way their lives are ordained. Sure, we have the freedom to choose or decide the intention of our outcomes. 

Notice how I said “the intention.” It is intentional because as we live long enough, we realize the reality of this: our plans be different from God’s plans.

And for another thing-when God has called us to be a light, there’s no one relationship that we can pour our all into. As a candle can not be hidden under a table and the sun can not be hidden in a cave, neither can the humans who are called to be the light of the world, be hidden in a single relationship.